In the shower this morning i was thinking about all the things that have changed for me in the past four years and some goals i have in mind to keep up this progression.
I really want to live a mindful life. Be aware and genuine and loving in every facet of my daily existence. I want to leave judgment to mean and shallow people. Leave guilt in my past. Accept that life is messy, mistakes are often and there is beauty in everything.
I desperately want to parent my children without fear. Almost impossible though given the horrors of the world. So instead i will accept fear as a prerequisite to parenting and let them go into the world despite it.
I constantly search for meaning in places where there is quite possibly none to be found. That is part of living from a fear based place rather than a loving center. Sometimes there just isn’t an answer and there is no way to make it all better. Sometimes i just go in for a hug.