I’ve been thinking about love. I feel myself coming to this place where i understand how to love unconditionally. To fall right into it. To let it wrap around me and set me free.
Perhaps because shane and i came together when we were really still kids and sort of tumbled our way into and out of marriage. Throwing four children and the speed that brings to life in the mix. My life for fifteen years was lived in a whirlwind that i didn’t really pay attention to. I participated. Somewhat. I was present, but unaccounted for.
My story is not new. It’s not one that isn’t shared by many. But it has been my life and that makes it important to those around me. It’s all here in the archives. Nearly six years of words and thoughts and trying to figure out who i am.
It’s taken me half my life to get to this point where i can almost say “I get it now.” I’m not here for you, or him, or them. I am here for me. To love myself means that they will love me too.
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It takes most of us women, mothers. wives a near lifetime to figure it out. Good for you. Loving ourselves first is so important.
Now this is one of my favorite reflection pieces that you’ve written Jess, its so poetic, mindfull and insightfull…you are a truly talented writer and I love to read your posts…xo