Some days i get lost in my head. Suddenly i realize what’s happening. I am dizzy and the world looks like a movie. I feel disconnected.
Some days it’s hard to shake that feeling off. I look around me and think i must have died a long time ago and this is just me standing as an observer on what my life could have been.
I move my body out the door and the rush of cold air in my lungs snaps me into the present.
I feel so lucky at this moment. To feel the sting of air, the rush of my possessions, the love i have, the love i have lost. The life to come.
The children who have grown in me and around me. The big problems of big children.
My life has been long. I have made so many mistakes and won so many victories. I finally feel content. This moment is exactly what i have been running towards and now i just want to circle here.