just waiting for the sun to set

Ready, set, go.
We have been negotiating the roads of boundaries. It is so much more complicated than it seems.
You get the internet dating, i get the kids for your date nights. You get facebook, i get spring break.
You know, you hear stories about couples who split and they both remain friends with the same people. I call foul on that one. I don't believe it. It's too complicated, at least for the first few years.
Perhaps because of the way we split, perhaps because my name and reputation was dragged through the mud, perhaps because i wasn't the favourite in the friendship equation. But, most of the people that were "ours" are now "his."
We try to be friends, he and i, but most often it is just too hard. We are friendly. And sometimes we aren't. Sometimes the kids get dropped off in the driveway and there is no hello in the kitchen. No friendly chat.
And there is this. This internet thing. They all read it. Girlfriends, in-laws, friends. They all know more about me than i do about them. Sometimes i wish i could just reach my hand through the screen and shake them and say "what you know is not the whole truth, all of this is just smoke and mirrors."
I find myself asking people i meet "please don't google my name, not yet." That's what we do right? We google people. And there i am. And now i think, maybe, maybe i have put too much out there.
Then there are the ones who understand. My friends who live this same life. The singles, the only's, the bloggers, the twitterers. I watch with interest as couple after couple form from this little community. That would be easier. I would understand, you would understand.