The kids and i just spent three days in vancouver visiting family and friends. It was lovely and everything being with family is supposed to be.
I felt loved and supported. Family, i'm learning, is a wonderful thing. A team that is always there, listening and sharing.
On tuesday evening i went out for drinks with a very old friend. Someone who has known me for twenty years. We haven't seen each other in seven years, but within a few minutes all that time just disappeared. We talked and talked. About life, love and blogging/social networking. It made me realize how much i treasure this website and the way it has unfolded. The weaving road of my life cataloged in miniature clips. I can't remember ever sitting down and talking about this little world with somebody who understands it and shares my passion for it. It was inspiring. Gave me a little boost to keep on working at it, expanding what i do.
Mostly, going out that evening reminded me what a magical thing a friendship can be. Like family, a lifelong friend has an understanding and thoughtfulness on your life that comforts. A dynamic where you feel truly present and yourself. I miss my friends from the city.
I'm a little angry at myself for taking so long to make an effort, face my anxieties, and connect with people. I go to vancouver several times a year and this was the first time that i followed through on best intentions to see people. To open myself up to the possibility for fun.
It was a wonderful little visit. For the kids and me.
this thing called fun
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I too feel that way about old friends…renewing past relationships that can be integrated into our lives,bringing more meaning to our existence…Im glad you reconnected with your friend, I cant help but wonder who it is…
never be angry over past decisions on whether or not you decided to do something…everything we do and the decisions that we choose are the ones that guide our future…without the decisions that we make, whether they are sooner or later, we would not have a future full of surprises and these expperiences that we allow build on our memories of the past and create memories for our future…
This post gave me hope – for knowing that friends will accept me once I am ready again.
This post also gave me green fits of jealousy for that awesome outfit and THOSE BOOTS.
I miss my friends more than I miss a new pair of boots, though. I miss you a lot.
One of the reasons I keep reading your blog Jess is that you regularly post sentences I just haven’t got around to articulating for myself yet. In this case “a little angry at myself for taking so long to make an effort, face my anxieties, and connect with people” is exactly what I’ve been trying to avoid realizing. Thanks for holding up the mirror.
I too had a wonderful time catching up and was amazed at how quickly the years melted away in our sharing of the times of our lives. Let’s not make it seven again please. It turned out to be quite the week when it was all said on done.
JP