I do want you to understand.
My hipster darling, internet.
Wriggling around in my 30's skin.
I am lingering in my long kiss.
Tonight?
If you asked me how my life is. It is filled with drama. Insecurities.
My husband passes by me like a stranger. A simple "i'm going to bed."
A simple "i hate you."
How did i get here. How have i become the plague of human spirit when i spend my days playing red rover and blowing sad noses.
not much like you’d recall
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Oh Jess, please don’t go away.
Jess, as little comfort as it may be, know that you are deeply cared for.
PLEASE find a therapist that makes you work to help yourself – are you taking your meds? Do you need more? different? It does not have to be this way – help yourself for your husband’s and children’s sake. THEY LOVE YOU! YOU CAN DO IT!
People who don’t even know you are worried about you this morning. Please let us know you are okay.
I have been reading your story for so long and laughed and cried. You are such a great woman and have so much to look forward to. Please don’t keep this a secret. Talk to your husband. Call someone. Call 911. Please Jess. Your kids need you.
Dear everybody,
I am fine.
Thanks for your thoughts. A little drama, that’s all.
See how we are worrying ? – we fellow mums care about you.
Just sending lots of love,
xxx
lyn
i understand…
I’m glad you are fine. Though that is what my mom says whenever things really aren’t, so given the circumstances, I’m still worried about you.
xoxo
Delurking to say please be strong. So worried about you this morning. Your husband is reacting….which is so much better than indifference.
Regardless of the drama, your kids love and look up to you. Remember that – when you feel like throwing in the towel.