i believe that lovers should be chained in flowers

May 29, 2007

in fucking depression 2007!

I've had a day. Some gloomy health news has left me knocked on my ass.
My poor broken ass. The fifth time really is the charm for the broken tailbone.
I have lived for the past twenty years contemplating suicide on a sometimes daily, weekly or monthly basis. Yet, all of the sudden, when the choice is taken away from me. The "everything should be fine, but the mortality rate is around such and such %" speech. Well, i'm not okay with that.
I have so much to live for. So much living to do. Celebrations to be had.
I am going to be fine. I need to be fine. I have four kids. This year couldn't kick my ass anymore.

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blackbird May 30, 2007 at 4:53 am

I believe in you. I do.

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ade May 30, 2007 at 9:51 am

Me too!

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Jess May 30, 2007 at 11:05 am

Oh Jess,
Scary news is never easy to deal with. It isn’t fair when the choice is removed. But now you can see what you want to continue to live for.
Hang in there, you have a beautiful spirit.

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LetterB May 30, 2007 at 7:30 pm

Good for you, Jess. So sorry that you got scary news but I am glad that you’re feeling in a fighting mood.

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