I think i have magically stumbled upon the magical cocktail of drugs.
When i was at the doctor last week i asked her for more clonazepam. She hummed and hawed, said it was normally not given out after so many months on effexor but she would give me 40 to last six months.
When i went to the pharmacy i got 90 with two refills. I have been taking one in the morning and one at night. Now judge me however you feel. But, i have been sleeping really well. I have been calm and happy during the days. I have done laundry, kept the house clean and gone on adventures with my kids.
I have even been able to give parker a little bit of tough love which is paying off.
Things are going well. I am enjoying my children. Marvelling at how much they have grown in these five months i have been asleep at the wheel.
My god. How did i do this? How did i create such fabulous, dynamic creatures. They are beautiful, wanting of nothing, but love and fun. They are smart and creative. They are drawn to me like velcro, yet happily entertain themselves for an hour while i have a nap.
I am being restored. I can feel it.
My instinct is to use up this clonazepam to wean myself off of effexor. I'm really scared of it's side-effects. I like to abuse my liver with red wine, not synthetic drugs. I like not being anxious all the time, but i still have panic attacks which are supposed to be gone at the dosage i am on. I don't want to try other drugs. I've tried all the old school ones and now i've tried effexor.
I just don't know.
A question i will ponder over the next while, while i just let myself feel human.
xxoo
jess
perfect mix
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So happy for you, hon.
aww thats great!!
yes, very happy for you. also, spring is coming and that counts for a lot
I feel like I’m walking along-side you…
This is good news. :)
I’m so glad that you’re getting some relief. Such good news! I know it’s difficult to navigate all of those drugs and their side effects. I have friends who’ve gone through those challenges. I hope it continues to get better and better!
It’s amazing to realize that under all the nagging and colds and making lunches and wiping bums and such, they are brilliant little creatures. I’m glad you’re feeling better.
So glad to hear that, Jess. I got chills reading about how everything’s turning around. Yippee!
i love me some benzos.
I don’t share it much, but I’ve been on Concerta for a few months. Amazing difference. Much like yours. There’s no shame in doing what we need. Love ya.