lost cause

December 11, 2006

in depression 2006!

My power has just come on after a 10 hour outage. A giant windstorm swept through my little village. Trees fell everywhere, including in my yard.
We came home for a few moments, then evacuated in fear of giant fir trees falling on the house.
I have so many christmas cards i am planning on rolling naked in them.
I am okay. I called the doctor. Shane made an intervention. I am seeking therapy.
I am scared. To come out from behind this curtain. I am weak.
I am doing this for him. For you.
I am going to be better.
I am ready, so ready, to be happy.
Thank you everybody.

{ 13 comments… read them below or add one }

Chair December 11, 2006 at 11:11 pm

Good. I’m so ready to hear about it. So happy for you to be happy.

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jenB December 12, 2006 at 12:04 am

you can do it. you are one brave motherfucker.

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blackbird December 12, 2006 at 3:09 am

You’ll make sure that Shane gets some video of you rolling in the cards, right?
Be well.

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Irene December 12, 2006 at 3:50 am

I really don’t want my comment to sound like a cheezy love song, but Jess,
you can do it,
I believe in you,
we’re all here to support you. XOXO.

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TB December 12, 2006 at 5:06 am

Don’t forget to do it for you because you deserve all the happiness in the world. You CAN do this.

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wordgirl December 12, 2006 at 5:36 am

Like everyone else…I await your happiness, too.

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daysgoby December 12, 2006 at 8:37 am

We love you, Jess, even if we’re not local.
Be happy.

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ade December 12, 2006 at 10:14 am

You are a wonderful…
poet
blogger
mother
volunteer
record label creator/owner
editor
wife
friend
party-thrower
promoter
dancer
survivor
with the greatest smile in the world…
and those are just the things I know about!!!
You’re an inspiration, and I’m a believer. Happy holidays Jess, I love you.
Ade

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Elizabeth December 12, 2006 at 10:27 am

Oh honey, you are not a lost cause. You are a beautiful person who deserves happiness. I’m sorry about the storm, hope you didn’t lose too many trees. And, I’m sorry I haven’t mailed my card yet, I keep thinking we’re going to take a family photo to include in them but we haven’t done it yet. But we will, and I’ll send you a card, I promise!

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Deb December 12, 2006 at 2:06 pm

It is going to help and you are going to feel good again.
All is well, thank you thank you thank you for sharing.

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Lia December 12, 2006 at 4:30 pm

Wishing you safety and love. Love ya!

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kilowatthour December 12, 2006 at 7:50 pm

i’ve got to get my card up there to get in on that action.
(hugs)

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jfoo December 13, 2006 at 1:08 pm

As my best friend says in instances like this, “keep truckin.” Somehow that just makes me put my head down and perservere.
Your brood is just so great. So much personality. They are so lucky to have a mum who appreciates their individuality and is so involved in making their lives so full.
Keep Truckin Gurl

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