Today is my birthday. I am happy to have reached this birthday. I am happy to have gone through so much mental torment this year. It has made me realize how hard this life is. How many beautiful things there are. How much i adore my family. Every cute and smelly inch of them.
I am not all better. I don't want to be portraying that here. One day, everything is all better. It doesn't work that way. The other night i had a small breakdown by the pool. I heaved the most massive tears i have ever cried. I moaned and tears flowed. Shane held me.It was the first time i have cried since this whole thing started. It was horrible.
I am seperated from my sadness here in miami. I have left it behind me for now. I am ignoring it while i enjoy this beautiful place with my husband.
Today we are going on a swamp tour in honour of my birthday. I'm totally psyched.
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I wish so much for you.
Happy Birthday!!!
Miami is beautiful, look at that sky and that water!
Happy Birthday, Jess. I hope you find your way out of the sadness this year. You deserve all the happiness the world has to offer.
Happy Birthday!!!
Happy birthday, from a fellow Libran.
I hope you’re having a beautiful day!
Happy Birthday, Jess! -hugs galore- I hope you are enjoying your trip and the warm weather!
Happy birthday. It is a gradual process, but things will continue to get better. We will always continue to have “off” days because we are human. But there is definitely a place that is “better” if not “cured”.
I wish every happiness to you and your family and pray that this year will be wonderful for you in every way xXx
Happy Birthday Jess! What a great place to have your birthday! Hope you have a great time in Miami and that the weather’s perfect while you’re there.
Jess – it’s snackishblog{at}yahoo.com. Send me your snailmail and I will get some in the mail – is there anyone you want besides you? I am out of some but will do my best.
Happy, happy birthday! I’m exactly 13 days behind you (and one year). Have a great one.
happy birthday beautiful. may this year bring you peace and comfort and beautiful things. SMOOCH!
You’re one day older than Theya! Happy Birthday, babe. It’s good to cry, though, sometimes, isn’t it? To let it out?
Happy Birthday, BeauTeeFul!!
Happy Birthday!
I owe you a cupcake with sprinkles and a cherry.
Changing the scenery helps, but it’s a temporary thing. You can only be “all better” if you can be in your own space and feel okay. Hope it happens for you.
Yay! I’m so glad you’re enjoying Florida. I love it here.
Hope you had a wonderful birthday and that you got to see some gators on the swamp tour :o)
happy happy birthday, jess. enjoy it, dammit! xo!
Happy belated birthday, Jess!
I know you’re still working on being in the place you want to be. I’m rootin’ for ya!
Happy Birthday all the way down there in sunny Miami!!
Miami, too beautiful, too hot!