Tonight i got a message on my computer that my hard disk was full. When i asked shane he said that it was my photos. When i looked at my iPhoto i had 2843 pictures. So much life.
I spent a couple of hours going through it all. They date back to 1999. Sporadic. But they are there. Pictures of toby as a baby, then eliza and then lots of parker. I switched to all digital around the time parker was born in 2003.
But, my god, the life i have lived in the past nine years. It hurts me to think of how fast it is passing.
When tristan was born i cherished every single moment. Every milky smile. Every newborn stretch. Every ounce gained and inch grown.
And then toby was born, all colicky and complicated. A whirlwind. A whirlwind of babies and pregnancies and births and milestones.
Really. I am humbled by this life as i look at it in photos. I am struck by the beauty of it. I am in awe of all that i have to lose.
Thanks for letting me share it. Really.
all of this is clear to me
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no Jess, thank YOU.
“I am in awe of all that i have to lose.”
that is so beautiful, jess. thank you.
The pleasure is mine.
Isn’t this the truth?
I am a photo whore myself, and I refuse to apologize for it.
And it served me well.
Thanks for sharing pieces of your treasures with us.
I am 8 weeks into this thing called parenthood and I feel like it is flying by. I can’t imagine 9 years! Can you get an external harddrive to back them up so you can free up some space? They are very cheap these days.
we thank you for sharing with us
Aww, Jess. That was beautiful. I loved that. Now I need to go clean out my harddrive, too. It’s so slow when I open iPhoto. Could it be the 5,000+ pics?
Maybe.
Your kids? Gorgeous.
thanks for sharing it with us. you do have a truly beautiful life, vibrant, ALIVE life.
somehow this post slipped past me. it’s beautiful.
you really evoke that certain hazy feeling i get when looking through photo albums — be they paper or on my hard disk. it’s amazing how much things change, and how quickly.