Winter has arrived! For most of canada it would seem.
We are in the midst of a major storm and cold front. -15c. tonight apparently. Anyways, my power keeps going out and will probably soon go out for the long haul. The joys of country living (in the valley).
Parker is, i guess, officially weaned. Boobyless. He's a trooper. But he is waking up more than ever. Foiled again. I am hoping this is a temporary setback and soon blissful sleep will be mine.
I had a long meeting at the school today with a facilitator regarding some strategic planning. He called me a "chronic overachiever." It's had me thinking all day.
My parents would probably say i'm an underachiever. Not taking advantage of my education. Only a mom. I think about this all the time in regards to my daughters. When they tell me they want to be a mother it fills me with joy, yet at the same time, i want more for them. Why is that? Am i ashamed of who i am? Do i want more for me? Will i be employable after ten years at home? Why the hell do i spend full time equivalent hours volunteering for the school?
He asked me that, the facilitator, "have you thought about getting a job?"
Powers flickering. See you soon. I hope, unless the trees fall.
stormy weather
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Aw, baby, don’t second-guess yourself or the choices you’ve made. You’ve done beautifully, and your girls will do the same, whatever they choose. How could they not? I mean, really? Hugs and warm blankets!
-15!!!! I have NEVER EVER experienced cold weather like that. Good Luck.
Yup — our power is flickering here, and we are smack-dab in the ‘burbs, because it is crazy windy. Probably the strongest wind I’ve ever heard. And it’s supposed to be -23 by this evening. Good times!
Hang in!
Ice and wind storm here today. -31 with the windchill tomorrow. Fanfuckingtastic.
I venture to say that when we know others see us as just Moms, we second guess ourselves. We feel the need to defend while then feeling completely inadequate. I think that is what you don’t want for your daughters. The worry, second guessing etc… Make sense?
Stay warm … and inside too! Brrrrr….
I find that when people ask what I do and I say that I am a Mom, all questions end there. Very sad. I got a degree and did night classes upto and right after the birth of my first one. I don’t think it’s a waste. I’m merely in a sabbatical from them and will return.
PS: It’s freezing here too. Yikes.
holy cow woman, you have enough of a job as it is! also, i didn’t start my own business til I was 38 and was supporting the family on my own within 2 years. you never know what’s around the bend. just do what you are doing, and do it well, and the future will take care of itself. ideas will occur!