I am mad busy

I am mad busy today so this is a brief note. I have a General Meeting at the school tonight which i have to *gulp* do a speech-type thing at. I am very nervous, damn i wish i had some zanax or something. Also, all those people are crazy for hugging and i hate hugging, unless it involves the fruit of my loins, i really hate the hug. That is also causing me almost as much anxiety – damn hugging. Fuckity fuck.
Also, yesterday Parker wandered away. I was putting laundry away and he just disappeared. I ran frantically screaming down the driveway and found him wandering down the road with a stranger lady and the dogs. Terrifying. He walked a full block down the road – BY HIMSELF! He's not even two!
Fucking dogs thought they were going for a walk and led him along happily. The neighbor lady, i'm sure, thinks i was out drinking gin or something. I can't even tell you the terror i felt. Fuck. It was really bad and scary and terrible and then the "what if's". Yikes.
So, i had some wine last night because i'm such an excellent mother.