I'm looking for inspiration in all the wrong places. I feel that once I started getting people e-mailing me and a few spattering of comments I totally lost my groove. Momma needs her groove back. My husband is watching Team America and, once again, I just don't get it. They are fucking puppets… am i wrong? Is it totally lame? I know lots of people love this movie and South Park and all that, it just seems like a horrifying waste of time. I feel like I may wake up in hell one day for the amount of TV I watch already, but adding total crap to it seems like double dutch.
We have been playing with Garage Band and we recorded my kids all singing Mary Had A Little Lamb. It is, I'm fairly sure, the best thing I have ever heard. I wish I could figure out how to post it as well as photos right here on my blog using Blogger and a Mac. Any help will be reciprocated with a life times worth of computer geek good deed karma.
I've been thinking a lot lately about the cycles of happiness and sadness – mania and depression. Way back before I had kids I had a nervous breakdown followed by a major depression and rapid-cycling mania. It was REAL fun. At the time I went through so much pain, sorrow and humiliation I willed myself to move on with my life. I came to a moment in time that completely changed me. I remember one day after many horrible weeks and lots of gory details I came upon Shane, alone, in our apartment and I knew from the look in his eyes that if I didn't get my shit together I was going to lose him forever. The real life-altering thought that came from that moment was the realization that he was my true love, that I could never lose him because the pain of that would be worse than anything. It sounds so movie'ish icky kaka poo-poo. But, it really changed me – that moment. It was a defining moment. I've had others since then – the births of each of my four children, my dads cancer, my brothers alcoholism, the day my mom dropped my sisters 6 week old baby. (I'm serious about that) It all sounds like one giant butt-fuck Julia Roberts movie.
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